Dear Pressers and all those being pressed,
It has been over one year since I wrote. Not just on this blog but anywhere else. Talk about writer’s block. So what has changed in this one year…everything. A lot has happened that I’m proud of; a lot I’m too embarrassed to share with the unseen blog world and a lot that I wouldn’t waste time remembering.
This was my first real year growing up. It was the year when I finally learned…
1. It doesn’t matter how right you are, if you are not the boss, you are not the boss, so keep a lid on it, shut it, keep it to yourself, etc…
2. Being the bigger person sucks…a lot
3. …But being petty and childish won’t help you sleep at night
4. It doesn’t matter how tired you are, just keep working and ticking off that list
5. Tasks will often seem impossible but do it anyway, little by little by little (Yes, just like the little Engine that could) even if you feel you can’t go on
6. …Because feelings can lie and they often do.
7. People lie too and they steal from you and do their best to break you down and sometimes they succeed
8. …But that’s why there is sleep and mornings with dew and coloured skies and coffee…just a few of my favourite things
9. Growing up is painful, in ways you never imagined. No one prepares for it because its hard to explain that the people you love will love others, the people you hate will supervise you and the people you tolerate will become intolerable…its just easier to say ‘you’ll see when you get there’. Because you will and you won’t forget the lessons life teaches you by knocking your teeth in.
10. But the most important thing I learned is not to forget to keep loving people, to be kind against your will, to be helpful and to listen to others and comfort them. Because the truth is, things may be bad but you are strong enough to care for others and help them through their rough patches. And helping them will heal you in an unexpected way…sometimes.
So, I guess I’m back. A changed person. My parchment is parched and I’m speechless. Struck dumb by the striking resemblance life has to a bed of nails. I’m all out of puns and snarky remarks. Everything seems a shade grayer…so I make it bright.
I find stuff to laugh at. I watch The Office. I run around with kids. I pick flowers in the morning and arrange them on my desk.